Over the last few years I have grown to love public speaking. It can be slightly addictive. The nerves before the talk. The adrenaline that floods your nervous system as you begin to speak. The attention and eyes of other humans. The crash of euphoria when it is over. I have grown to love it and grown to seek it out. It was not always so.
On my first day of college I had to do a presentation in front of the new class. It was the worst presentation I have ever been in the room for and I was the one giving it. I rambled, meandered, blushed and eventually had to apologise and stop half way thorough. It was the classic stuff of nightmares. I sometimes wonder if this experience primed me to love public speaking the way someone with a deep fetish is imprinted at a point of trauma and shame. I expect it is so.
Last week is spoke at TEDx in Bratislava. This was a whole new level of challenge. Before I went on the horror of that first presentation squatted on my mind. Fuck fuck fuck. What if it happens again? What if I have lost it? What if I loose control of my body and poop my pants? I seriously considered all these options as I was being miked up in the shadows.
I am happy to report that the talk went well. I remembered what to say, didn't talk too fast and gastro-intestinal fortitude was maintained. The talk was about DEEP. How the project came to be, what is is and what VR can do for society. I am told it will be up online in September or October and I will post it here when it is.